In honor of Father’s Day, for the month of June, PCHA is pleased to focus our latest blog series on Heart Dads. What better way to start than revisiting a powerful message from Heart Dad and recurring guest writer, Chris Perez.
Let’s get one thing out of the way: the day you looked at the grainy ultrasound image as your wife’s doctor started his or her sentence with “unfortunately” or the moment you realized your newborn would be whisked away via ambulance or helicopter, fatherhood became way different. You realized that the formative years of your child’s life would possibly be spent in doctor’s offices vs. on a football field or an ICU floor vs. a basketball hardwood floor. You suddenly found yourself more tired than you’ve ever been, more broke than you’ve ever been, and more scared than you’ve ever been. Being a dad is hard work, and if you’re like me, some days you feel like maybe you’ve got a bit of a grip on this whole things, while other days you feel like the Washington Generals and life is just waiting to douse you with a bucket of water. So how do you know you’re doing things right? Last year I stumbled upon this fantastic quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson, who wrote the following about success:
To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived;
This is to have succeeded.
I actually have this quote cut out and taped on my bathroom mirror, and I feel like it’s super powerful, especially for a Heart Dad. You see, for us this quote seems a little weird. Laugh? You gotta be kidding me, right? I promise you guys, there are moments of laughter in there … it might take awhile, but it will come.
Maybe you’re not the smartest, but I guarantee you that Heart Dads work the hardest. And it doesn’t take a wall full of degrees to accomplish that. And sure, our kids may not be considered physically healthy, but we can make sure we raise heart warriors who are kind, empathetic, and want to make the world a better place. I think that is what Emerson was talking about there.
To know even one life has breathed easier because I have lived. That’s a big responsibility, but that’s why you share your story, that’s why you advocate for CHD research. That’s why I write my blog. Listen, there are days I don’t feel like doing it. I’d rather sit on the couch and eat a whole carrot cake, but people continue to contact me letting me know how much I’ve helped. And that is what keeps me from quitting. Dads, there are people out there waiting to hear your story … they need to hear your story. Share it!
The journey of a heart family is full of ups and downs, cheers and tears, joys and sorrows. It would be so unfair to use traditional measures of “success” for a Heart Dad. For me, Emerson’s words are what I hope to achieve. I hope that it works for you too. Because when it’s all said and done, if I never get another raise, if I never make more money, if I never have the nicest car, it will all be OK as long as I’m a great dad who did all he could for his family and others. That’s how I want to be remembered.
So Heart Dads, when you’re giving yet another late night tube feed, or you’re trying to get comfy on that wonky recliner in your child’s ICU room, or you’re flexing off work to go to yet another doctor’s appointment, I want you to do a few things. First, take a few deep breaths. Next, think about the smiles and laughs, think about the awesome kid you’re raising, and think about what you’re doing (or can do) to make the world a better place for Heart Kids and Heart Dads. And my hope for you is that – in that moment – you’re reminded of your impact and your strength. Keep it up, Dads! And have a Happy Father’s Day this month!
Chris Perez (aka HLHS Dad) lives just outside Charlotte, NC with his wife and 3 sons – including Nolan, who was born with HLHS in 2012. He is the author of Half Heart. Whole Life: an HLHS Dad’s Blog, where he shares his journey as a heart dad with honesty, humor, and the realization that dad’s just handle things differently. In his spare time – if such a thing exists – Chris enjoys New York Yankees baseball, playing guitar, and memes. You can visit Chris’ blog at http://hlhsdad.com.