This 3rd week of September, we share another special sibling story. Today we hear from Korrin Wells, a sibling who just happens to be that of our Blog Coordinator! Korrin discusses how CHD has affected her, and the lessons it has to offer.
As a child growing up with an older sister with CHD, one of my earliest memories was being held by her, but before she went in for one of her open heart surgeries. Lauren has always ferociously protected me, and the day she went in for open heart surgery, I was 4, and that day I was prepared to be her protector; give her my heart so she could wake up. That day is still clear in my mind, I was so confused and anxious. Seeing her dead asleep, for all I knew she could never wake up, but in my own heart, I was completely sure that she would. It’s just not her style to give up and not fight. Her heart has made her into a fighter, and a lover, with a large appetite for life. That’s probably the best lesson she has taught me, how to fight, love, and live.
It’s hard to describe how her heart has affected my life. Knowing she has this “heart disease” has been ingrained in my life since day one, it was our family’s reality even before I was born. Sometimes I think it worried the people around her more than it did herself. She always seemed more fascinated by it, rather than restrained by it. As though it was just another challenge to conquer. I watched how CHD has shaped my big sister throughout life, and I have learned a lot from the journey, and couldn’t imagine her any other way now. There’s a distinct quality CHD gave Lauren regarding her personality, that I simply couldn’t see her having if she wasn’t born this way. That same quality has shaped my life and inspired me daily. Although it is her greatest weakness, it’s also one of her greatest strengths, as she lives harder than anyone I know. In hindsight, I couldn’t imagine my life without the battle of CHD either. Although I wouldn’t wish CHD on my worst enemy, it has taught me, and my family so much more than we can even realize, and it has strengthened us in so many ways. I believe her battle with CHD gave her the determination to live, I mean really live, and was her catalyst for strength and independence. She always strived to do things herself, pay for her own bills and buy her own car, travel as much as possible, and push physical limits. Anything her doctors said she could not do, she did. She never let her CHD define her, and denied the notion that she couldn’t run, weight lift, or travel to high altitudes.
In the moments when I was so beaten down, and discouraged by life, I looked to big sister as my example that I can do whatever I want to in life. She has always been our biggest advocate in life, turning her attention on me and my other siblings, rather than herself, and became my role model for athletics, change, and ability. Even when she had moments of doubt, and struggled to believe in herself, I saw her grind through the hard work of her journey with CHD and push past merely surviving, to eventually be the powerful young woman she is today. What makes the ongoing battle with CHD so hard is imagining life when she’s not there. However, I see the beauty in this unfortunate beginning to Lauren’s life, because I see that her heart is part of her making, and she is part of mine.
Korrin Wells (left) is now a high school senior, and captain of her cross country team. She will attend Colorado State University, and is very excited to study marine biology! Korrin is a very talented barista at a local coffee shop, and is saving up money, as she is already anticipating her Masters degree. Lauren Wells (right) is a recent graduate of Colorado State University, who now works in finance as a junior investment analyst.